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MORE True Life in God Testimonies...The pain of childhood sexual abuse and the circumstances involved left a gaping hole in my heart and in my soul. That horrible history scarred every part of my life and made drugs look attractive. I began to use marijuana as a teen, which became an addiction within five years. My first notable grace was the opportunity to face the abuse I suffered, and sort through the emotional wounds and began to close some of those wounds. This may seem like nothing to some people, but I assure you that this first grace made possible the progressive opening of the door to my heart. The second grace was the noticeable feeling that Jesus was calling me back to the church, so I started going to church again. I had faced my childhood, and now I began to ask Jesus to heal me of my hurt and anger. I knew that I would have to give up my addiction, but it was bigger than me. I did all the penitential practices I was taught as a child. I went to confession, prayed the Rosary, prayed the Stations of the Cross, and began to study the Bible to get to know God. Finally, I reached the point of understanding, and I forgave the person who molested me and the people who let it happen. I did not know anything about TLIG, but after reading a section of the Bible, I asked God where his prophet was today. I saw that God always seemed to have one, and I wondered what his prophet was doing today. Within days of asking about God’s prophet, I received my third notable grace. During prayer one day, my spirit was lifted. And by lifted, I mean right out of my body. I was without sight, sound, smell, touch, or temperature. I was in a vast expanse of peace —a profound, indescribable peace. I remember thinking I always wanted to have this peace. I also experienced a sense of Love, Belonging, and Completeness. I don’t know how long I was there. Then I heard Jesus say, "You have to go back now, you have a job to do." I was thrilled, and said "Okay." Instantly, I was back in my body. It was then that I realized that Jesus did not tell me what my job was. I still don’t know.The first thing I noticed is that all earthly things seemed nothing more than children’s toys. Then I realized that the hurt, pain, and fear related to the sexual abuse were gone. I was free. I also lost all interest in drugs. Completely. I was in awe. God was real, alive, and accessible. I wanted to tell everyone to be excited about God, but no one was interested, except maybe in a polite way. It looked like my personal relationship with God was going to remain personal. Then I received the fourth notable grace. At that little bookstore at my Catholic church, I picked up Book Three [of True Life in God]. When I started to read, I immediately recognized the voice of Jesus. And as I read, I could feel a balm on my heart, healing me. And as I read I was thrilled, other people were having that Jesus is Real experience. Moreover, Jesus had answered my question about his prophet. Wow! Within a month of my experience, I discovered Vassula was coming to San Francisco to speak. I could not believe it! Two weeks later, my sister, my niece, and I were on our way to San Francisco, 45 minutes away. After her talk, Vassula prayed over us with her crucifix that contains a piece of the true Cross. I did not "fall down" in the spirit as many others did. I believe that was because I had already had been "in the spirit" just recently. The exaltation of my soul from Vassula’s visit lasted three days. The circumstances surrounding these events, the gravity of my pain and sin, (including the need for me to forgive my aggressor), and the speed involved in the events of the healing process leaves no doubt in my mind that my healing stems from the True Life in God ministry. I have been following True Life in God for 11 years now. God is my strength. |